Why is letting go so hard???...

Why is letting go so hard???... No matter what I tried to do, I’ve tried to let go. I know it’s been almost two years, and I know I should have let go of the past by now, but it’s so hard. I have tried so many things; like move away, dated different girls, and keep myself busy, but nothing has worked. There are times where I wouldn’t talk to this certain girl for many months, but the moment I see her, I don’t know how to act. I get so scared that I freeze up. What is wrong with me?!? The only thing I can think of doing is moving to a different country, but I’m risking so much. I cannot move away from my family for a long period of time. I moved to Las Vegas last year, and that didn’t work out because I miss them more than I miss this certain girl. I found out the only time when I don’t think about this girl is when I am in a different country. So is that the only option?

Japanese Tea Garden

Wow, I haven’t written a blog since May 17th. I was planning to write about my Europe trip, but I just got plan lazy. If you want to read about it, my friend Chris is writing about it little by little on his blog.

Well, I want to write about my day in San Francisco. Yesterday was another day in this blistering heat wave in the bay area. With the northern California fires and the heat, I felt absolutely miserable. Last minute I decided to hop on Bart and take a choo choo ride to the city. I decided to head to Golden Gate Park and visit the gardens over there. I went on the Bart website to find out what the closet station was to the park (which was 16th and Mission). I decided to walk from the station, and it took me roughly an hour and fifteen minutes. By the time I got there, I only had time to visit one garden, the Japanese Tea Garden. It is a beautiful place to visit. I can’t believe how the time passed when I was there. I literally spent over 3 hours taking pictures. When I checked my card, I took over a hundred pictures, but only liked 7 of them. That’s the way of a photography world; take a lot to get a little. I’m so glad I switched to digital because I spent soooo much money burning film away.

Lessons learned on this walk about trip in San Francisco… Never walk from the station again. The trip was too long, and I had to deal with 2 major hills. Also when I do a walk about again in the city, wear comfortable shoes!!! I wore flip flops yesterday, and my feet and calves are still sore.

Here are some of my favorite pictures that I took…