When A 3 Year Old Is Asked About Monsters

This clip makes me laugh everytime...

The End???

If you have been reading my past blogs, I talked about a past love a few times. Well, I saw her over the weekend. Instead of my legs feeling like noodles and I’m about to fall to the ground when I see her, I felt something different.

This girl means a lot to me, and I would practically do anything for her. Many times in the past, she would ask me to sing, but I’m very strong about saying NO. I don’t have the singing voice, and that is why I’m in the background playing an instrument. The other day, I was very close to sing a song just to “win” her back, but held myself back knowing how horrible my singing voice is. Then her and her sister asked me to breakdance. I felt that is something I can do since I used to do it as a teenager. I was a bit hesitant because I wasn’t feeling 100% due to a party that lasted all night long the night before. Well, I just convinced myself to go ahead and do a few moves to please them. That was a big mistake. About a month ago, I hurt my wrist really bad, and I had to wear a splint. I recently took it off this week because I felt it was strong enough that I didn’t have to wear it anymore. Well, I re-injured my wrist doing one breakdancing move, and I told them I had to go home now because I was in so much pain and had to get the splint back on ASAP.

When I was driving home from their house, I had a lot of anger building up. I thought I was angry at them for “pressuring” me to entertain them, or angry at myself because I fell into peer pressure. Then I realized I was angry because I can’t go back to the gym as I planned. Because of this anger, it made me realize for the first time that maybe this is THE END, and we are not meant to be together. For the past two years, I’ve been holding on to the idea that it wasn’t our time when we were together/dating, and one day, we can be together again, or even married. Because of the current situation, my bubble burst, and I have a new perspective.

I’m thinking I need to be strong and let go of the past. Because of my “bubble”, I truly ignored potential relationships or were in a few failed ones. I just want to fast forward my life and be in a happy place with my love life.

2008 San Francisco Auto Show

AJ's 2nd Birthday Celebration

Tattoos...

By now, you probably know I have 3 major tattoos that cover both my shoulders and my back. I got these tattoos for me and not to show off. Since I do go to the gym, I like to wear cutoffs, so the one on my shoulders are exposed. Well, yesterday I decided to wear cutoffs to school because I was planning to head straight to the gym after my class was over, and I didn’t feel like changing. Normally the lab for my microbio class is freezing cold, so I always bring a sweatshirt to keep me warm. For some reason, it was a bit hot in the lab so I took off my sweatshirt, and the reaction I got yesterday was, “I wouldn’t never thought a person like you would have tattoos” or “Wow, you have tattoos?!?” These are the reactions I tend to get when people first see my tattoos. Isn’t it weird how people have a natural tendency to stereotype? I bet within the first month of this semester, people think I am Asian/Pacific Islander who is good with computers, take pictures, and get straight A’s. Well I am, but someone with tattoos… hahahaha

The One Regret…

When I give advice to people, I tell them never regret anything you did in the past. The mistakes you did makes the person who you are now. It is easy to say those words, but hard to live by. Being my age, I made many mistakes in my life, and learned from them. But there is only one mistake I regret; letting go a person who means a lot to me.

This happened a little over 2 years ago, and till this day, it affects me. I tried moving on by dating other people, but because I can’t let go, I find myself in many failed relationships. What makes this hard is we cross paths time to time. Today I wonder what the future holds for me…

Hustled

There has to be a time when you get hustled, and today was one of those times for me. Today was a typical Tuesday for me. Went to school and headed for the gym. On my way to lunch, I get stopped by one of the booths in the mall. I normally have a great defense against these people by just ignoring them, but this one particular girl literally jumped in front of me and blocked my path. I couldn’t move left or right because there were people on my side, so I was forced to talk to her.

She was offering a shaving cream and after shaver. She asked me to sit down while she did her demonstration. I can tell she was a touchy feely person because she kept rubbing my arm and holding my hand (the demonstration was on my face, not my arm by the way). I didn’t really mind the demonstration because she was pretty to the eyes. When she was done, she asked me if I wanted to purchase any of the products she showed me. I was pretty good at saying no, but she was very persistent. I think her final offensive move was to give me her personal number… and before I knew it, my defenses failed and purchased the products she showed me. What is wrong with the world where HOT girls offering products to people like me… hehehe